(Katie) The point is not YOU- the Point is HIM. Let that sink in. The point is NOT YOU. He alone is worthy of glory. I was reminded of this truth again tonight. One of my RA's that I am mentoring invited me to speak to her floor of girls. I spent most of the afternoon praying about what God wanted me to share. I had some really great ideas, but God wanted to go in a different direction. A direction I didn't necessarily want to go because I was afraid of looking like a fool. I wanted to make a good impression. I am speaking to some of the smartest, most talented young women in the country. I wanted to appear well put together, intelligent, and relevant. But God desired for me to share from a place of weakness.
The way we deliver the Word is not supposed to exalt us, but JESUS. The more I walk with Jesus, I am learning that He is less concerned with me being powerful and more concerned with me being willing. Acts 17:6 encourages us to be pliable in the Master's hand because He wants to turn us upside down in order to turn the world upside down. God keeps saying, "Lay down more. Lay down." There is only ONE direction in ministry: lower still. Heidi Baker, a radical Jesus lover, put it this way: "If you are in a low place and not concerned about your position, whatever trickling presence of God is in the room, you will be low enough to receive it" (p. 49). Before I spoke tonight, we sang one of my favorite worship songs, "How He Loves Us" and as we sang, I was reminded that God's perfect love for me, casts out all fear. Therefore, if I know how much God loves me, my fear of looking like a fool; my fear of man; my fear of rejection- all of it is covered in God's love. I took a risk tonight, threw out my "glamorous notes," and spoke from the heart about the broken places that God is still at work redeeming in my life. And in His kindness, God used it.
Go Low.
Its NOT about YOU.
Its about HIM.
God's not looking for the gifted ones.
He wants someone whose willing....willing to go low.
Are you?
I'm still learning.
Katie, I love this post. I really feel that this blog will serve to be letters to ourselves over the years as we grow, learn, forget and relearn. I love how God used you over this weekend! Promise me I get to be there next time you speak, sing, dance or teach?
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